Better

I'm feeling better. My eyes are no longer puffy and hot and everything I hear no longer sounds muffled and hollow: those sensory changes are clear signs to me that I'm very stressed. I feel relaxed and happy and I no longer feel like I'm operating under a huge weight that is pushing me down. It's hard to describe... all I know is that I feel more like happy, cheery myself than I have in days. It's sort of like a weight has been lifted, or a curtain has been opened; I see things differently and I feel lighter, if that makes any sense.

A friend of mine suggested that I might have felt the way I did because I was over-tired and exhausted. My mom also suggested that I was feeling stressed because of all the memories I was encountering while packing. I think both theories are right: I was having trouble dealing with the emotional element of packing and I was exhausted. Yesterday and last night I slept a long time - better than I have in weeks - and this afternoon I had another long nap. I've also done no packing for a couple of days and I think that's helped me relax and take some pressure off of myself, too.

I hope that I don't get that stressed again because it was a little scary and a lot unpleasant. Crumpling to the ground while sobbing while also feeling undefined anger and fear isn't something I like to experience because it's so out of control.

Even though I slept so much today, we went over to our friend's house to see Get Him to the Greek, a movie about a music industry guy who has to get a wild musician to a concert. The music in this movie is hilarious, if completely inappropriate for most audiences. There's a lot of drinking, drug use, and sex, but somehow the movie is funny anyways. If you like this kind of juvenile movie, you'll like this movie, too.