Saturday, July 16, 2011

Thinking about Edmonton

I'd planned on calling the numbers for the therapists this past week but when I set that goal I didn't realize how busy I would be this past week. I had to be up early for most of the week for appointments and so I was tired and busy. I plan to make the calls Monday or Tuesday. I still feel like I need help dealing with things.

I'd also originally planned to go to Edmonton this summer but I'm not sure if that'll go ahead. I really want to see my friends and I want so much to spend time with my aunt, niece and nephews because I didn't see any of them the last time I was there. I'd also like to see the city in the summertime, when the sun is shining and it's light until late.

However, because so many of my core issues started in Edmonton, I am nervous about going back there. I'm not sure how to best deal with some of those things - I end up doing the wrong things which just makes things worse. I feel like I need to have seen someone before I go there so that I can relax and enjoy the trip instead of worrying and feeling negative.

UPDATED to remove a description of something related to a particular person. I couldn't help but feel that my intentions in writing that weren't good, like I was trying to get people on my side or justify something. After some reflection I decided that this wasn't fair or right so I've changed things.

1 comment:

manchester fat acceptance said...

i understand your feelings about coming to edmonton (just based on the edited post as i didn't see what you removed). use the time and resources that you need, and get yourself as well as possible in as many ways as possible. we'll still be here!