One of those days

We were given a memory foam mattress topper and we finally got it put on the bed last night. It is very, very, very comfortable :) My back hurt a lot less after sleeping (and napping) on it last night. I think Ian likes it, too. I think we'll be very happy with this topper.

We bought an Ott-lite today but it started flickering in a funny way :( We'll have to take it back tomorrow. An Ott-lite gives natural light and is fantastic for colour matching. I got to use one at Ian's parents and it really helped out with my earring-making. I can hardly wait for a new one!

I have a stash of earrings that I'm slowly adding to my store. Of course I'm working on more :) I've actually kind of run out of room to store my beads. I think I need a second tackle box, so I'll get one tomorrow. I like the portability of the one I have, and if I had two that I can carry around that would be just as good. I don't really want a ginormous tackle box because I can't easily carry that around.

I got some beads from Fire Mountain for only $1 per strand (plus shipping and customs). These include strands of irregular sodalite, rainbow fluorite, and rose quartz nuggets. I like round beads and all, but there's something I really like about the stones that look like, well, stones. I like the earthiness of them and the imperfection of them. That's another reason that I like real stones instead of glass or plastic stones - they've got imperfections and that's part of their beauty.

I did call my doctor and I'll see him tomorrow just before lunch. Ian will go with me and talk to our doctor as well. I know how I've been feeling and Ian can talk to him about my behaviour. I hope that it doesn't take too long to find an antidepressant that works. I like the me that isn't depressed - it's strange to be getting depressed. It's like I'm watching from a corner of my head and I can't stop it from happening. I see myself cry or hear myself think bad thoughts and I know that's not me but I can't do anything about it. I don't want to be artificially happy, but I don't want things to be like they are now.