I thought I'd leave the red carpet post at the top of the page for a few days. Well, that and nothing has really happened over the last few days :)
I had my second individual counseling session. I definitely think I've made the right decision by going and that this counselor will work for me. We're not focusing so much on how I was raised or my family or anything or going over my history, piece by piece (which I don't remember much of, anyway). Instead, I start talking about things that are going on and how I'm feeling about them and she asks me questions or gives me suggestions. Her questions encourage me to look at things in a different way or from another perspective which is very helpful.
Through this question-and-suggestion process, we managed to uncover a few things that I've been assuming or thinking that I hadn't really realized before or that I was hiding from myself. Getting to this point was a bit of a struggle for me but when I realized what I'd been thinking I felt lighter, as though a weight had been lifted from me.
Of course knowing about something and changing it are two different things! She gave me a few activities that will help me make the needed changes. The session itself was emotionally exhausting and I left feeling drained but happy. I can tell you that this process isn't going to be all that easy but it will be worthwhile.