Sunday, December 04, 2011

Gozer ... and my mom

One of the other reasons I haven't been posting as much is that my mom killed herself a year ago and that's been weighing on me. It's hard to believe that a whole year has passed because it still feels like it happened just yesterday. I have been feeling sad and I have been missing my mom. I miss talking to her and I miss having her in my life. I wish she was still here - only happier than she was when she died. I have no idea whether there's any kind of life after death or anything like that but if there is, I hope that she's happy and content now. 

Having Gozer has helped deal with it because I have responsibilities to her. I can't just curl up and cry all the time, even if that's what I want to do, because she has to be fed and walked and cuddled. I have been taking the time to remember and mourn my mom but I'm not wallowing in it like I might have otherwise done.

Owning a dog is a lot of fun because I do love having her warm, furry body nearby all the time but it's also a lot of responsibility. A dog has to be walked in all weather, even the rain. Walking a dog in the rain isn't as fun as you might think it is. Gozer was so happy to be home out of the rain that she ran around like a crazy dog for a while. That's my girl, all right! Here's a really good picture of her that was taken by Ian's mom:

Look at that adorable face!


Anonymous said...

I've been thinking about your Mom also. Even thought we lived so far apart and didn't have much in common anymore, I still loved her and have happy memories. Her life wasn't always sad. Hugs & Love to you. BTW, pup is adorable!!!
Aunt Margaret

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear you have been so sad about your Mom but it's understandable. I bet you miss her lots. I know I would.

Congrads about your new addition to your home. Gozer is so cute! Is Ian allergic to cats is why you cannot have one?
Love, Trina