I feel pretty.... and cranky

I went back to my normal hairstylist to get my hair cut today and I am SO much happier than I was the last time it was cut. I'd gone to another stylist at another salon because my hairstylist upped my prices. Even though the other salon gave great service with head massages, hand massages, and the like, the hairstylist didn't do as good a job on my hair. She was very rough with the comb on my head which was very uncomfortable. And even though I told her that my hair winged out in certain places and asked her to cut it so that it didn't wing out, she ignored that request. So my hair was kinda funny-looking.

Anyways, I'm much, much, much happier with my new hairstyle. She fixed it up and made it look awesome - and I know that it won't wing out. :)

So the pain still hasn't gone down, unfortunately. I'm taking maybe 2 percocet a day, which is a bit less than before, but I'd like to not have pain. I'm also still quite tired. If I have enough caffeine I can stay awake all day. Should I need caffeine to stay awake?

I'm feeling a bit restless and unsettled, with some crankiness and moodiness thrown in for good measure. I don't know why I'm feeling this way, although Ian's guessing that it's probably related to the pain and tiredness. But I'm finding myself alternately wanting to be left completely alone and wanting someone near me. It's almost like everything is a little bit off-kilter, making me feel both overwhelmed and lonely. How is this possible? Why am I feeling this way? How can I get rid of this and be more balanced? Any ideas?

I don't think I'm worrying about the oncologist; I think that she may have called today if there had been something wrong, so I'm feeling cautiously optimistic on that front.