Upcoming oncology appointment

I see my oncologist on Friday at 9am. That's awfully early for me, as I'm not usually up until around 11am or noon or 3pm or so :). It will be a challenge just being awake for the appointment.

I've been doing some thinking about the appointment. We'd done the bone scan because of the pain in my femur, and I think I'm going to ask for a CT scan of the femur. I don't think I need to ask for other scans, although part of me would like to know whether or not there's cancer growing somewhere else. We'll see what happens.

As I've mentioned before, I have this fear that whatever is going on is all in my head. I still think that I need to push to find out if there is something going on, though. I'm very tired in that way that I've had when the cancer was progressing before. I don't know how to describe it, except to say that it feels like I've been run over by a truck and everything takes too much energy. Every time I've been this tired before, there have been other reasons for this tiredness - I was a student and studying hard, or working too hard, or I've just upped my meds - but this particular tiredness underlies all those "normal" reasons for being tired.

Anyways, I've got to talk to my oncologist about all this. From what other people have said, they feel a lot better when they're on Femara - and I don't feel a lot better. I think I felt a bit better in December, but now I definitely feel worse. So we'll see what happens.

Oh, and I'm not happy with the Physician's Formula foundation that I bought yesterday :( It's not quite the right colour. I think I know of one that is the right colour, but that particular kind was sold out yesterday. So if you want a barely-used Physician's Formula foundation (there's a sponge applicator, but I only gave it a try on my clean skin and didn't cover my whole face) in creamy-beige, the lightest colour, let me know.