I've got a red carpet post on the go from the recent BET Awards but since it isn't quite ready I figured I'd better post something so you know I'm still alive.
I hadn't realized just how withdrawn I'd been even though I wasn't answering emails or checking in on message boards. I'm starting to come out of that phase although I'm still feeling a bit depressed. Things aren't so bad; I'm not suicidal or unhappy or seeing things in shades of grey (I feel happy most of the time and I see everything in vibrant colour). It's just that I'm finding that I've got a lot more negative self-talk than usual and I'm having a hard time dealing with that.
I think it's time that I found myself a good therapist... someone, like the group counselor suggested, who has experience dealing with childhood trauma. I've been trying to check out sites that talk about personality disorders but reading some of the stuff leaves me feeling cold and shaky. To me this is an obvious sign that I need to deal with some stuff and that I'm not able to do that on my own.
I have no idea how to find someone with the right qualifications so if anyone has any suggestions about how to find a good therapist, let me know.