Thursday, June 30, 2011

Not feeling quite myself

I've got a red carpet post on the go from the recent BET Awards but since it isn't quite ready I figured I'd better post something so you know I'm still alive.

I hadn't realized just how withdrawn I'd been even though I wasn't answering emails or checking in on message boards. I'm starting to come out of that phase although I'm still feeling a bit depressed. Things aren't so bad; I'm not suicidal or unhappy or seeing things in shades of grey (I feel happy most of the time and I see everything in vibrant colour). It's just that I'm finding that I've got a lot more negative self-talk than usual and I'm having a hard time dealing with that.

I think it's time that I found myself a good therapist... someone, like the group counselor suggested, who has experience dealing with childhood trauma. I've been trying to check out sites that talk about personality disorders but reading some of the stuff leaves me feeling cold and shaky. To me this is an obvious sign that I need to deal with some stuff and that I'm not able to do that on my own.

I have no idea how to find someone with the right qualifications so if anyone has any suggestions about how to find a good therapist, let me know.

4 comments:

PussDaddy said...

I am not sure how to find a good one but I hope you do and that you feel better soon.

PD

The Hyperlexian Aspie said...
This comment has been removed by the author.
The Hyperlexian Aspie said...

i understand that feeling and i hope you can pull out of it in short order. here are a couple of resources that can help:

http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/state/Ontario.html

http://www.camh.net/care_treatment/resources_clients_families_friends/challenges_and_choices/index.html

http://www.psychotherapyontario.org/site/index.cfm?DSP=Chapter&ID=6

love,
vicki

(reposted with corrected link)

Chantelle said...

Thanks for the resources, Vicki! I'm reading the CAMH one and it's quite useful. The other two have lots of good links to people so I expect I'll be able to find someone.

Love you,
Chantelle