Tomorrow is oncologist day

I see my oncologist tomorrow. I thought I was doing ok but I'm finding myself feeling irritable and a little cranky.... so I guess I'm a little more nervous or anxious than I thought. At least Ian's going with me so I won't be alone. He doesn't usually come with me to my appointments because they're usually pretty straightforward but tomorrow's special.

The appointment tomorrow is a follow-up to the appointment I had a week and a half ago where I got the CT scan results that showed enlarged lymph nodes in my chest. The big question is whether they're enlarged because the cancer spread to them or if they're enlarged due to the sarcoidosis.

We already know that the sarcoidosis is in my skin in that scar on my elbow and a few other places on my legs. We don't know whether or not it's also in my chest.

So tomorrow hopefully my oncologist will have a plan for me now and going forward and it won't involve too much waiting. I don't mind doing a treatment change but I don't want to wait forever for biopsy results, if that's what we do.

I'll know more tomorrow... all I have to do is get through tonight (hopefully by sleeping for most of it).