Sunday, April 22, 2012

Leaving on a jet plane

I'm heading to Edmonton tonight for the first time in almost a year. I'm going at the end of June because my niece and one of my nephews are graduating high school this year and I wanted to celebrate with them. However, my niece and her IB Art class are having an art show this month so when she invited me to come to the show there was no way I would say no. I'm proud of my niece and nephews' accomplishments and I'm honoured to hear about or be asked to participate in what they're doing.

Originally I'd thought I would be going back to Edmonton last summer but then I kind of fell apart and I wasn't emotionally strong enough to go. Thankfully, my psychologist has helped me develop tools for dealing with my emotions so that I stay out of that vortex of depression and sadness. Although I'm a little nervous, I think I'm finally ready to go back to Edmonton. Besides, going now will be good practice for when I go back in a couple of months.

To be honest, I'm more nervous about leaving Gozer than anything else. She follows me around almost everywhere and I'm worried that she will be sad when I'm gone. Ian will take her to work with him so it's not like she'll be by herself or anything... I'm more worried about how she'll react when she comes in from her evening walk and rushes downstairs to see me and come back to sit with me. I just don't want her to be sad. I know she's a dog and all, but she was already abandoned once and I don't want to evoke that feeling in her. I'm trying not to show that I'm nervous or sad about leaving her so that I don't cause the feelings I'm trying to prevent!

Overall, I'm excited about this trip and looking forward to seeing my sisters, niece and nephews, and friends. I'm not taking a laptop with me (just my mobile) so I won't be posting again until after I'm back on the evening of April 30. Wish me luck :)

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